As I close the door of my new study and begin this new chapter I think of the days that have gone. Bitter sweet memories fill my mind , this is the first time I've written anything in so long. A part of my heart has been so closed off at what my pen might say or the computer screen in some or another way. They say words express nothing without action or thought but what is action without the journey of our words. Words speak a new life into being it can make or break us , it can encourage and uplift or twist our hearts into ever vessent knots. Words oh happy words can make a dreary day turn into a sunny day. Ive walked this journey long and hard enough to know that words can change everything and express something to others that could cause a heap load of trouble and beyond.
Someone walking out of your life without words is evidence of this. This year has been a roller coaster of ins and outs , yes's and no's , but I can't help but think that if we all had better words things would have worked out better. The Bible if you believe in it or even if your finding yourself reading this and you don't .... it tell's us to guard our hearts and to listen instead of instantly speaking out of selfishness , but its not as easy as it seems its a long and winding road that needs to sometimes be taken over again and again. I find it particularly hard to guard my heart when I see so much freedom in investing in people speaking words of wisdom and joy and happiness into their lives , yet its taken me a long time to understand that people don't always appreciate that. I still find myself going hopelessly overboard and beyond , loving on people even though they don't seem to care , maybe its just one of lives giftings that God has placed on my heart , but many times thats a burden too. So as I write this I begin to realize more and more that yes its okay to invest words into peoples lives and to care about them , but sometimes the knowing is in the letting go. We can probably only say so much and then the waiting starts , the waiting to see what tomorrow reveals. The waiting to see if there will be words of affirmation or confirmation...
I look back at the photographs and thats all they are empty memories that lay behind us as our words have destroyed us. Maybe I'm not making any sense at all , but all I know is that we need to sometimes simply build a bridge and forget what was said and done and move on. So I urge you dear reader to move on from what is keeping you captive to take each day as it comes , to forgive those that have hurt you and to love those who have left you because you never know what twist tomorrow may bring.
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